28 July 2010, 4:09 pm
I feel so bad that I have to resign from this job of medical representative as it is taking a toll on my health. I am not getting any job satisfaction neither I enjoyed doing this job for the last 5 yrs. Now i want to get into IT or something decent in-house job. Will i be able to get a job? I work in a pharma company as a medical representative and I feel am being harassed there as the General Manager/Country Head of this company is none other than my own brother-in-law .And he is torturing me and making me unsuccessful in my life and career for last several years.I am, or, have been misguided into this profession.Even in case of marriage my parents r conspiring with them( with my sister & b.i.l.). Actually my parents started misbehaving with me after i left my full time MBA in 2003.so i retaliated that i left MBA due to ragging (i went to a small town called meerut leaving Calcutta,my hometown) ,so I often had fight with them and in the process i got angered and broke things in the house ,used verbal slang against all including neighbors and relatives . They told bad things about me to all these people and make me a boycotted person.I now dont have any friends and in my locality no one talks to me. When i call someone of my relatives or any batch mates of yester years they after hearing my story never takes my phone again.I feel like a ostracized ,miseried person. So they dont want to give me marriage. I am presently doing MBA from Sikkim manipal and also a sap course. The SAP institute assured me of giving chance in interview calls but no job guarantee. I desperately want to change my pharma sales line and dont want any sales job anymore in the future. I am B.Sc.(Physics,Chem & maths ) pass course graduate under old mode(10+2+2 system) from Calcutta University. I really cant take the pressure of this job anymore & feel like I will get heart attack or stroke anytime in the field or that i will feign on the streets.Then what will happen to me? Furthermore i ride a heavy bike which makes it difficult to handle with a manager sitting behind & lots of items like a bag on my shoulder. a tie to be worn which makes it pathetic all the time under such hot weather conditions in India particularly Calcutta.And in rainy season u have to manage a raincoat as well !! I seem to perspire so profusely. Ufff!!! I cant continue, it's a horrible job. And in fact my brother-in-law's major fault is that he shouldn't have got me into this job and ruined my career.He should have given me right advice .What u friends say? Is this not a conspiracy? And another reason is that they do illegal things which they want to hide so my parents do these. I mean they dont have any kids and my sister got aborted 3 times as she had miscarriage so i feel they went for some surrogate mother in Jaipur or Delhi or from Kolkata( I am not sure but she might be a Bengali woman and very sexy too).This could be another reason. Today i have decided to file my resignation.But i am afraid as my parents and others say that i am not going to get any other job as I dream of. I feel my parents r biggest ill wishers & that its a conspiracy that I am unmarried. It seems the whole Indian system preplanned this for me and treats me as if i am a devil!! I too wanted to get married while doing this job but when i go to the field i cant tolerate the fact that i have become a salesman.This realization i didn't had for so many years. I feel very low self esteemed I dont know why after so many years i have this feeling.I should have quit this job quite long back ,in my initial years when i was younger.Actually when i go & see young or matured couples , or in doctor chambers I feel very disgusted upon me I dont get the motivation to do this job anymore.I realize that i have become poor and getting poorer & older everyday. Also no rich or good looking woman will marry me & even if i have a chance my parents r ruining all my chances of getting married to a good female.Also at this age it is difficult to get good woman as most normal l woman gets married by 28 or 30.And most attractive Indian Bengali female get settled by 25. My mother daily curses me that since i am a failure i should commit suicide.My father discourages me saying there is no way left or it is too late. But i can't or dont want to leave my house as I can't leave the security of my home in spite of their misbehavior and all this hostile environment around me & lack of scope .We have our own house in good locality in south kolkata.(Sorry I tell all the details here). Whats more I have no girlfriend to share my sorrows with whereas I find local guys some even not properly employed getting good looking gals and marrying them. most of them r supporters of some political party and having some shop in the locality.It makes me angry as well as jealous on my luck or plight. I too read in a good English medium school and all my peers r well established or abroad doing But I dont have money to go abroad or anyone to finance me.... Read More »
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